My 2018 got off to a rocky start. On New Year’s Day, we made the trek home from Christmas vacation visiting family that took longer than it should have due to traffic and accidents. When we got home, we were out of food, the grocery store was closed, and Target was out of sauerkraut. So I had to improvise and made an Asian-inspired PA Dutch “pork and sauerkraut” of sorts: freezer orange chicken with pork egg rolls.
It was also the first day of marathon training… but that got moved to the next day. Which worked out well enough, because Wednesday’s run was cancelled due to fasting in preparation for Thursday’s UC procedure (nothing like starting the year with a clean colon! hahaha)
So today is my soft reset. It’s not going to be perfect- I’ve already made mistakes- but I look forward to the opportunity to improve, to better myself, to stop making excuses and getting in my own way.
That’s the great thing about changing and becoming who we want to be; we can start whenever we want. A week from now, a month from now, or even just RIGHT now. If we want to improve, we can. And I do.
The last few months for me have been plagued by postpartum anxiety and I won’t even pretend that it is all behind me now. It’s still very present and on the forefront of my mind. Even the idea of change and a better year makes me anxious. But as someone once said, on the other side of fear lies freedom, right?
That’s all for today, but stay tuned for more details on my marathon training and my new year’s resolutions!
What are your goals for this year? Do you plan to make this your year? YOU SHOULD!
If you recall, in January I embraced the word calm and tried to embody all that it meant. Mostly, it went well. I still had days where I couldn’t get myself together and nights where I was awake for two hours or more just anxious and overthinking, but in my outward emotions I was definitely more calm, especially with Riley. Although it’s winter and the days can feel long, I feel like we fell into a good groove.
I embraced calm with my running, too. I was up early many mornings to get my runs in, but I didn’t pressure myself to go a certain pace or certain mileage- just simply to run by feel. This was hugely beneficial and I often (though certainly not always!) surprised myself with my run and was able to start my day with a clear head.
For February, my word to embrace is
Everyone is talking about disconnecting from their cell phones, from technology, from distractions. I hugely agree with this, but I don’t want to put a ban on my cell phone or laptop, so to speak, because I don’t think that I am obsessively attached to either. Instead I want to work on connecting offline, in being present and connected to the moment, not thinking about what I need to do later or whether or not my life is exciting enough.
I feel isolated often being a stay-at-home mom and also being rather shy. It’s not necessarily that I am an introvert- I NEED other people and connections- but I am very anxious about making them and have a heard time really feeling close to someone. I’ve been living in Pittsburgh for over three years and only now am starting to feel like I have some friends. But my closest friends (sisters and mom) live hours away. So I want to make a point to open up and connect with the friends I am making. Stop being so shy about even texting them or hesitant about going out.
I even feel weird connecting with people on Instagram and writing comments- even though that’s the point of social media! I guess I fear rejection? I worry about putting myself out there and posting because not many people respond and it makes me doubt my efforts.
I also want to connect more with my body. I told Dave last night that I need to stop missing my pre-babies body and waiting impatiently for #2 so that I can get back to normalcy. I’ve been frustrated with how I don’t fit in my normal clothes and am so uncomfortable, but in all honesty, it’s not that bad. I need to breathe and love what it and what it’s all for.
I want to love and enjoy this pregnancy as much as I did Riley’s and in order to do so I need to connect more with my body. Appreciate the runs that I still can run, lay still and feel the little baby wiggling around inside (truly one of the coolest feelings). I found a yoga studio that offers both prenatal yoga and mommy and me yoga classes and I want to try to take at least two this month as a way of connecting with my sweet babies.
So that’s my goal. As always, I want to continue connecting with Riley during everyday life and not take for granted my chance to spend all day every day with her (even when they seem long).
Have you made a goal this year to disconnect from technology? How do you connect?
We’ve somehow found ourselves at the end of January already, one month of 2017 down and done. Thirty days ago we had dreams and goals, plans and resolutions for how we are going to make this year our “best year ever.”
But how many of us are keeping those resolutions?
I’ve read that as little as 8% of people actually keep their resolutions throughout the year. And while, admittedly, I can’t say that I have ever been in that 8%, every year I create resolutions and every year I strive to keep. And I probably will continue that for years to come.
I LOVE the idea of fresh starts, new opportunities, open doors, and exciting chances. There is so much to see and do in this world, so much potential that to not even try to embrace it seems like a waste,
So let’s check in on our resolutions and be honest with ourselves: are we keeping them? Solidly or kinda sorta? How can we improve? And how can we reward ourselves for keeping them so far?
My 2017 Resolutions Check-In
1) Have a fit and healthy pregnancy.
So far, I am doing this one pretty well, although I amended my resolution pretty early on. After quickly realizing that an at-home yoga video wasn’t going to keep my attention, I resolved to work out 4x/week and made a small goal of running as many miles as there are days each month. Did I accomplish all this? Kinda sorta. The first and last weeks, I only worked out 3x/week, but I did manage to go over the 31 mile goal. And I also focused on resting when I needed it. For instance, this past Wednesday I cancelled my run because I knew my body needed the extra rest. And I definitely benefitted from that. So for February: 4 workouts a week and 28 miles.
2) Blog twice a week and write.
Yes! I have been blogging consistently this month and am so proud of myself. I am trying not to lose heart and know that follows won’t flock to my blog immediately, but sometimes I do feel discouraged and wonder if I should bother to continue writing. Does anybody read/care/get inspired? Is my blog pointless? But my husband reminds me that I am doing this because I like to, and that keeps me going.
As for writing fiction, I have written, yes, but not to the extent I would have liked. So I need to dig deeper into this in February.
3) Learn how to and eat healthier.
I would love to say that I don’t eat cookies on the regular anymore, but that would be a lie. I did back away from them for the first few weeks, but apparently if they’re in the house, I’m eating them. Additionally, I’ve been craving lattes, so I’ve gotten them two or three times every week. (I stay within the OB’s caffeine recommendations.) On the flip side, I have been conscious about eating way more fruits and vegetables and having balanced meals, especially breakfasts. I drink at least 70 oz. of water most days. Overall, I think I am doing pretty well, although there is definite room for improvement. (I’m looking at you, Chips Ahoy!)
4) Be the best mom and wife I can be.
Honestly, I don’t know if I will ever say that I am being the BEST I can be, though I am certainly trying. Maybe this one is too vague, but it serves as more of a reminder to me to strive every day and not become lazy in my relationships even when Baby 2 makes me want to just lay down and sleep.
Now it’s your turn. Are you keeping your promises to yourself? Don’t sell yourself short. If you want to make a change, MAKE a change. Don’t wish for it. This is something that I am working very hard on doing!
Let me know how your year is going! I’d love to hear!
Happy New Year! I hope you all had great, fun-, food-, love-, and laughter-filled holidays!
New Year’s Eve celebratory dinner at Mad Mex
Mine were amazing, but hopefully I will get to that more in another post. Today, let’s talk about resolutions!
Started 2017 today with a family 5k
As a blogger and aspiring fitness blogger, I feel like I should have some inspirational or hardcore resolutions for the new year. Or at least something.
I am a cliché. I make new year’s resolutions every year. And almost every year I fail to keep them. Just like every year I say I’ll write for this blog on a regular basis…and every year I don’t. Because I am the worst.
But at least I’ve got goals. That counts for something, right?
We’ll say it does.
Anyway, this year I made a few whole-year resolutions:
- Read 12 books.
- Run 3 distance races. (13.1 or more)
- Swear less. I am a mother now, after all.