Gooood morning! It’s Tuesday! Today will be filled with cleaning and, of course, a run. My in-laws are coming into town tomorrow to watch R and J so Dave and I can go on our first kid-free overnight! I’m so excited. I love my babies to the moon and back, but I’m excited to spend some alone time with my husband.
Last Thursday, we went on our first family double jogger run of the season. I know it’s so nerdy and nuclear family of us, but I love running with my little squad. We only covered 2.5 miles, but it was enough to just get out of the house on a beautiful night and spend time together.
Fast forward to yesterday, I got a 5.25 miler in on the treadmill. I wanted to run outside so badly, but my intestines gave that a hard no so treadmill it was. I swear treadmills are harder for me. I think- I know- it’s a mental game, so I try to mix it up as much as I can. Last night it was a speed ladder. I ran 3 songs at 9:40 pace, then every song I increased the treadmill by .2 (so like 20 seconds?) for 6 songs, eventually getting up to 8-minute pace, then 3 more songs at 9:40 pace and a cool-down walk to get me 5.25. Ba-bam! Love it. I’m also loving Panic! At the Disco for running lately.
Tonight will probably be a quick 3- to 4-miler because, again, deep cleaning.
I’ve also been going on a bit of a spring cleaning/Marie Kondo craze lately and am organizing and nesting like I’m pregnant (I’m not!!). Anyway, the Vietnam Veteran’s Association does this great donation project called Pick-Up Please and today they are coming to pick-up a bunch of clothing and shoes and bedding, some of which I’ve had since childhood. Yeah, I know. This was long overdue. But at least it’s getting done.
What are your plans for the day? The week? Have you ever taken an overnight without your babies? Let me know in the comments!
Hey, all! Long time, no see.
I’m excited. You see, I’ve been inspired. Last week, my little family and I went on vacation to the Outer Banks with my husband’s extended family, but right before we left I finished Girl, Wash Your Face by Rachel Hollis. And it left me so motivated.
The line that really stuck with me is where she talks about wanting to write a book and writes, “I decided to stop giving up… Just once, I thought, Just once I’d like to know what it’s like to finish!”
I mean, right?!
So during vacation, I mulled it over. I got myself pumped up and decided to just go for it. Just do the damn thing! (Have you seen The Bachelor? It makes me irrationally angry, but seems to work here.)
I immersed myself deep into vacation and had a blast. But decided that when it was over I was done making excuses. Saturday, our 8-9 hour drive home turned into 12 hours. With a 1 year old and a 2 year old in the car. We got home around 10pm.
Still, Sunday morning I made my way out of bed to a heated yoga class.
Monday, my husband joined me on a 21-day fix workout at 9pm.
And yesterday, despite being tired as all get out and just wanting to lay down during the kids’ naptime, I turned on Beachbody and owned AAA day in 80-Day Obsession.
I set my alarm for 6am today (after 6:30 baby wake-ups all vacation because of sunrise, this seems less hard) and actually rolled my butt outta bed to write and here I am.
Because Rachel Hollis is right. Nobody cares about your dreams as much as you do. YOU are in control of the work you put out.
I’ve read other light-a-fire books. Grace, Not Perfection most recently and You Are a Badass. Both were awesome books and got me jazzed. But this time, I don’t know. This time, I don’t want to look back. I’m 31 years old. I don’t want to spend my free time scrolling Facebook or Instagram posts I don’t care about.
So let’s raise our mugs of coffee (because, hello, it’s 7am and too early for whiskey or wine) and realize that it’s time to work for it! And let’s just do it!
Okay, my son is crying, back to reality. Buh-bye!
My 2018 got off to a rocky start. On New Year’s Day, we made the trek home from Christmas vacation visiting family that took longer than it should have due to traffic and accidents. When we got home, we were out of food, the grocery store was closed, and Target was out of sauerkraut. So I had to improvise and made an Asian-inspired PA Dutch “pork and sauerkraut” of sorts: freezer orange chicken with pork egg rolls.
It was also the first day of marathon training… but that got moved to the next day. Which worked out well enough, because Wednesday’s run was cancelled due to fasting in preparation for Thursday’s UC procedure (nothing like starting the year with a clean colon! hahaha)
So today is my soft reset. It’s not going to be perfect- I’ve already made mistakes- but I look forward to the opportunity to improve, to better myself, to stop making excuses and getting in my own way.
That’s the great thing about changing and becoming who we want to be; we can start whenever we want. A week from now, a month from now, or even just RIGHT now. If we want to improve, we can. And I do.
The last few months for me have been plagued by postpartum anxiety and I won’t even pretend that it is all behind me now. It’s still very present and on the forefront of my mind. Even the idea of change and a better year makes me anxious. But as someone once said, on the other side of fear lies freedom, right?
That’s all for today, but stay tuned for more details on my marathon training and my new year’s resolutions!
What are your goals for this year? Do you plan to make this your year? YOU SHOULD!
I would love to have a good excuse for not blogging at all in April, but I really don’t. I guess you could say that I was too busy achieving my goal and Embracing life this month, which wouldn’t be dishonest. I love my blog, but I found my self choosing family time – or naps – over writing.
I’m here now, though, so let’s catch up!
Simmons Farm Easter Fun
A few weekends ago, we took Riley to an Easter event at a local farm. There was no Easter bunny, but judging by her reaction when I got her photo done at the mall (she was not happy… but handled it better than Santa!), it was probably for the better.
The events included an unconventional egg hunt in an apple orchard (you collect any 12 eggs and redeem them for prizes), a make-your-own birdhouse from a gourd, and a potted planted project where she got to paint (we used markers) a pot and plant a flower. There was also an area to pet farm animals, which was her favorite part.
It was a relaxing day that we got to do at our own pace. It wasn’t super crowded, either, which was great. And Riley loved it. She got to pet baby chicks and a goat, chase chickens, and take a long, curious walk around an orchard. I think we will go again next year!
I Hope She Knows
My second article was published on the Pittsburgh Moms Blog. It was a completely different article than my first one about regaining momentum during back-to-back pregnancies. It’s titled I Hope She Knows and gets real about the struggles of balancing an adult life with a toddler. It seems to have gotten a lot of positive feedback, which is encouraging! Please go check it out!
Also, I had one of the top five articles for the month of March on the blog which was SUPER exciting!
We went back to Reading to spend Easter weekend with our families. It was a very relaxed weekend and a lot of fun. Riley in her Easter dress is pretty much the cutest thing I’ve ever seen in my life.
Yard Work Weekend
This past weekend, Dave’s parents came out to Pittsburgh to help us tame our yard. We moved into our home in September 2015 when I was 31 weeks pregnant and are still working on getting our yard just how we want it. With a half acre, there is a lot to do! So this weekend was spent weeding, weeding, weeding, and mulching all the flower beds and garden. They look so much better now and it makes me happy every time I look at them. In a few weekends, Dave and I (and possibly some loving, willing friends) are going to work on planting flowers and vegetables and our massive hill in the back. It is covered in mulch, but really crappy chopped-down-tree-pieces mulch and looks…not great. So the plan is to clear it all and put down a fresh layer. So far we’ve gone through 4 square yards of mulch and we’re estimating we’ll need at least 3 more. But it’ll be beautiful and worth it!
Also, we put up Riley’s new swing! It’s a hand-me-down from Dave’s cousin and so far she loves it!
Hmmm, yeah, what’s that? Running has been pretty scarce lately. I’ve only gone about once or twice a week this month, but I’m hoping to run as far into this pregnancy as I can.
Two weeks ago I headed out and a half mile in it started to downpour. It was GLORIOUS. I don’t know why, but it was one of the best, most fun runs I’ve had in months. I was offered a ride home by a kind stranger who called me crazy (in the best way!) when I turned him down twice.
So that’s been my life lately! How has yours been?
Since tomorrow is the start of a new month, it’s time for a new word to embrace. As a recap here were the last three:
For April the word I want to embrace is….. Embrace!
Let’s be honest, March was a rough month for me. Physically, I met my running goal, but my energy has been drained constantly. Sleeping is getting hard and my low back pain isn’t going anywhere. Emotionally, I’ve basically been a wreck. Whether is seasonal affective disorder, PPD, pregnancy hormones, or just stress and anxiety, I don’t know, but this month seemed eternal and I am ready to put it behind me.
But I don’t want to rush through life, especially this period of just Riley and me that is closing ever so quickly. I’ve spent so much time lately thinking about running after pregnancy and my non-pregnant body, itching to get back to it and to just not being pregnant that I am afraid I’m missing out on some special moments. Pregnancy, for one. I loved it with Riley, but this time around I’m more impatient and I want to embrace it and love it like I did the first time around.
Despite the fact that it’s been over a year, I’m STILL trying to get used to being a stay-at-home mom. It’s not easy. It’s not hard in the way working is hard (especially being a working mom!), but it is its own type of hard. From being with your child 24/7 (wonderful but exhausting) to having no independent means of income to feeling pressure of having to do more in order to make yourself feel like an equal since you don’t “work”… I feel like I’ve been failing in so many regards and just assuming things will get better after baby #2 arrives.
And in ways it will. I mean, I will have two sweet baby loves! But I will also have considerable less sleep, more poopy diapers, more meltdowns (from the babies and myself), and thank the Lord, more coffee. But that time is not here yet.
I want to embrace this chapter of my life- or “season” as the cool kids are calling it now. I want to fully love and appreciate every moment with just Riley, every kiss she gives my belly and every silly or snuggly moment we have. I want to appreciate every pregnant run and every missed run because I was too tired or not feeling up to it.
I just want to embrace my current life and all the great things that God has blessed me with more.
Do you ever feel like you’re living for the future and not embracing the present? How would you/did you change?