My 2018 got off to a rocky start. On New Year’s Day, we made the trek home from Christmas vacation visiting family that took longer than it should have due to traffic and accidents. When we got home, we were out of food, the grocery store was closed, and Target was out of sauerkraut. So I had to improvise and made an Asian-inspired PA Dutch “pork and sauerkraut” of sorts: freezer orange chicken with pork egg rolls.
It was also the first day of marathon training… but that got moved to the next day. Which worked out well enough, because Wednesday’s run was cancelled due to fasting in preparation for Thursday’s UC procedure (nothing like starting the year with a clean colon! hahaha)
So today is my soft reset. It’s not going to be perfect- I’ve already made mistakes- but I look forward to the opportunity to improve, to better myself, to stop making excuses and getting in my own way.
That’s the great thing about changing and becoming who we want to be; we can start whenever we want. A week from now, a month from now, or even just RIGHT now. If we want to improve, we can. And I do.
The last few months for me have been plagued by postpartum anxiety and I won’t even pretend that it is all behind me now. It’s still very present and on the forefront of my mind. Even the idea of change and a better year makes me anxious. But as someone once said, on the other side of fear lies freedom, right?
That’s all for today, but stay tuned for more details on my marathon training and my new year’s resolutions!
What are your goals for this year? Do you plan to make this your year? YOU SHOULD!
I would love to have a good excuse for not blogging at all in April, but I really don’t. I guess you could say that I was too busy achieving my goal and Embracing life this month, which wouldn’t be dishonest. I love my blog, but I found my self choosing family time – or naps – over writing.
I’m here now, though, so let’s catch up!
Simmons Farm Easter Fun
A few weekends ago, we took Riley to an Easter event at a local farm. There was no Easter bunny, but judging by her reaction when I got her photo done at the mall (she was not happy… but handled it better than Santa!), it was probably for the better.
The events included an unconventional egg hunt in an apple orchard (you collect any 12 eggs and redeem them for prizes), a make-your-own birdhouse from a gourd, and a potted planted project where she got to paint (we used markers) a pot and plant a flower. There was also an area to pet farm animals, which was her favorite part.
It was a relaxing day that we got to do at our own pace. It wasn’t super crowded, either, which was great. And Riley loved it. She got to pet baby chicks and a goat, chase chickens, and take a long, curious walk around an orchard. I think we will go again next year!
I Hope She Knows
My second article was published on the Pittsburgh Moms Blog. It was a completely different article than my first one about regaining momentum during back-to-back pregnancies. It’s titled I Hope She Knows and gets real about the struggles of balancing an adult life with a toddler. It seems to have gotten a lot of positive feedback, which is encouraging! Please go check it out!
Also, I had one of the top five articles for the month of March on the blog which was SUPER exciting!
We went back to Reading to spend Easter weekend with our families. It was a very relaxed weekend and a lot of fun. Riley in her Easter dress is pretty much the cutest thing I’ve ever seen in my life.
Yard Work Weekend
This past weekend, Dave’s parents came out to Pittsburgh to help us tame our yard. We moved into our home in September 2015 when I was 31 weeks pregnant and are still working on getting our yard just how we want it. With a half acre, there is a lot to do! So this weekend was spent weeding, weeding, weeding, and mulching all the flower beds and garden. They look so much better now and it makes me happy every time I look at them. In a few weekends, Dave and I (and possibly some loving, willing friends) are going to work on planting flowers and vegetables and our massive hill in the back. It is covered in mulch, but really crappy chopped-down-tree-pieces mulch and looks…not great. So the plan is to clear it all and put down a fresh layer. So far we’ve gone through 4 square yards of mulch and we’re estimating we’ll need at least 3 more. But it’ll be beautiful and worth it!
Also, we put up Riley’s new swing! It’s a hand-me-down from Dave’s cousin and so far she loves it!
Hmmm, yeah, what’s that? Running has been pretty scarce lately. I’ve only gone about once or twice a week this month, but I’m hoping to run as far into this pregnancy as I can.
Two weeks ago I headed out and a half mile in it started to downpour. It was GLORIOUS. I don’t know why, but it was one of the best, most fun runs I’ve had in months. I was offered a ride home by a kind stranger who called me crazy (in the best way!) when I turned him down twice.
So that’s been my life lately! How has yours been?
Since tomorrow is the start of a new month, it’s time for a new word to embrace. As a recap here were the last three:
For April the word I want to embrace is….. Embrace!
Let’s be honest, March was a rough month for me. Physically, I met my running goal, but my energy has been drained constantly. Sleeping is getting hard and my low back pain isn’t going anywhere. Emotionally, I’ve basically been a wreck. Whether is seasonal affective disorder, PPD, pregnancy hormones, or just stress and anxiety, I don’t know, but this month seemed eternal and I am ready to put it behind me.
But I don’t want to rush through life, especially this period of just Riley and me that is closing ever so quickly. I’ve spent so much time lately thinking about running after pregnancy and my non-pregnant body, itching to get back to it and to just not being pregnant that I am afraid I’m missing out on some special moments. Pregnancy, for one. I loved it with Riley, but this time around I’m more impatient and I want to embrace it and love it like I did the first time around.
Despite the fact that it’s been over a year, I’m STILL trying to get used to being a stay-at-home mom. It’s not easy. It’s not hard in the way working is hard (especially being a working mom!), but it is its own type of hard. From being with your child 24/7 (wonderful but exhausting) to having no independent means of income to feeling pressure of having to do more in order to make yourself feel like an equal since you don’t “work”… I feel like I’ve been failing in so many regards and just assuming things will get better after baby #2 arrives.
And in ways it will. I mean, I will have two sweet baby loves! But I will also have considerable less sleep, more poopy diapers, more meltdowns (from the babies and myself), and thank the Lord, more coffee. But that time is not here yet.
I want to embrace this chapter of my life- or “season” as the cool kids are calling it now. I want to fully love and appreciate every moment with just Riley, every kiss she gives my belly and every silly or snuggly moment we have. I want to appreciate every pregnant run and every missed run because I was too tired or not feeling up to it.
I just want to embrace my current life and all the great things that God has blessed me with more.
Do you ever feel like you’re living for the future and not embracing the present? How would you/did you change?
This weekend was one for the books: beautiful weather, abandoning chores and spending some quality time together as a family. I decided to do a picture post with minimal writing. Enjoy!
Stroller run nap.
Falling in love with Mommie’s sport
Learning to scrum?
When did she get so big?
Caring for her baby doll (this melted my heart)
Toothbrush-Loving Toddler life.
We also went to the park on Saturday and Riley had a blast on the slides and swings, but we didn’t take our camera so alas, no photos!
How was your weekend?
Going to try to start a series here with Friday Five on My Mind! It won’t be every Friday because let’s face it, I’m not that consistent yet, but it’s just going to be a roundup of things that have caught my eye or been on my mind lately. So without further ado, here is the first Friday Five on My Mind!
1) This refreshing article on being happy with a small life
Yesterday was one of those rare mornings where I was up, showered, dressed, and relaxing on the couch watching GMA before Riley woke up (thanks, kid!!). Honestly, I don’t like GMA, so I was surfing my phone and came across this article on Facebook. It is so refreshing and brings across a good point. That in a world where everything is extreme: up earlier work harder, no excuses, go big or go home, it doesn’t seem acceptable to want a mediocre life. But what is wrong with that? With being content with what you have and the small pleasures? Without needing to be the best or make a huge impact in the world? I still like striving for greatness, but it is a necessary reminder (at least for me) that living small is perfectly okay, too. That the people who know me and love me in my small life are what really matters- not worrying about people I don’t even know.
2) Tuesday afternoon
My decision to start spring on Tuesday was a success. The weather was gorgeous and Riley and I had a great time playing outside waiting for Daddy to get home.
3) My first sponsored post
Guys. I am SO EXCITED about this. It’s not for this blog, but I was asked to write a sponsored post for the Pittsburgh Moms Blog. I can’t give any details yet, but look for it in a few weeks!
4) Outdoor evening runs are back!
5) Iced. Lattes.
Specifically from Judy’s Java Joint. I’m still only drinking one cup of coffee or latte a day (or less) during pregnancy, so I want to make sure they count! Today, since it’s so perfect outside and Dave has the day off, we took Riley on a 4-mile stroller run and rewarded ourselves afterward with these delightful coffees. Iced Irish cream lattes may be my new favorite thing!
What’s on your mind today? Have an amazing weekend!